What is it about unattainable men that is so mouthwateringly appealing?Why do we long for them when perfectly attainable guys are available??????
A kind,warm,sweet,loving,handsome(in short,perfect) boyfriend on one hand n a stubborn,uncompromising childhood crush who lives in another continent and is so not interested in me on the other....n who does the hidden masochist in me go for?
Obviously the unattainable one... why can't i just appreciate what i have instead of lusting after somethin i never can?human nature?or just plain bullheadedness?
Who am i bein unfair to?myself or my boyfriend?
Maybe settling is a good thing....maybe its wat relationships r all abt.....countin your blessings......
Is bein alone the price to pay for bein true to ur feelings,no matter how illogical???????
settlin is better than bein alone....rt?
And how do i determine if this longing for my crush is jst physical or if it transcends tht?Short of throwin myself on him(so nt happenin!!!!),wat r my options?i'm jst bein contrary.......if i do snag him'i'll probably b bored in a while.....if past experiences r anythg to go by......there's jst somethg so sexy abt bein dominated by a guy when its always the other way ard.Bt i guess tht thrill will wear off when ur whole life is stretchin ahead of u...
The scary thg is do these feelings mean tht i dnt love my boyfriend?m i condemning him to a life wit a woman who secretly lusts after another man?
Y ve i put my crush up on a pedestal?i wish there was sm way to c his flaws in clear light without bein blindsided by my raging hormones.....
guess the only solution is put a lot of distance btw my crush n myself....emotionally as well as geographically!too much proximity will only breed more doubts.
so easy to pledge n so hard to perform....
